None of us is ever creative enough to know how things will actually work out…..

My last post featured my stay in Brittany during the month of May.      

However, since then I have spent eight days in Kingston Hospital courtesy the wonderful NHS (National Health Service) and have been recouping ever since, all of which emphasises that none of us is ever creative enough to know how things will actually work out………….

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I was two years old in 1948 when the NHS came into being. Having been fortunate enough to experience very good health during my lifetime, I have not had the need to use the Service very much, however, I have always held it in the highest regard.    

It’s important to say that nothing is perfect…..and indeed when the NHS came into being the world population was approx., two and half billion….now we are rocketing towards eight billion! This of course puts great pressure on all institutions……including the NHS.  

My recent experience in Kingston Hospital has brought home to me how fortunate we are in the UK to have such a Service. If necessary we must go to the barricades to preserve it from those politicians who might see it as a cash pot!!! They are out there waiting to get their greedy hands on it……..

The beautiful Brecon Beacons…Wales – watercolour/gouache

A little known fact is that The NHS is available to everyone within the UK no matter how wealthy or poor….it does not discriminate.     I know that in countries where free health care is only given to those who  are lacking in financial resources….much division has been caused.  

Magical Hummingbirds – watercolour  

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So what happened to me?    I think it’s fair to say that I had probably been overdoing things, especially as I hadn’t been feeling 100% since the beginning of the year.    I had been experiencing breathlessness…something totally new for me, and after a couple of visits to the doctor, I decided to let time sort things out!

I suppose time indeed did sort things out only not in the way I had hoped……

Crickhowell from the Bluebell Woods – watercolour

Having just returned from a lovely wedding celebration in Atlanta, Ga, I was resting in my flat when all of a sudden I experienced extreme pain through my middle section and nausea.    After fifteen minutes, I realised something was very wrong and for the first time in my life, called an ambulance.

The ambulance service was superb.    Once they arrived I simply let go and gave myself to their knowledge and understanding.      Magical hummingbirds were clearly overseeing the situation.

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On the way to the hospital it occurred to me that this might be it. It also occurred to me that where and how we die is not of great importance, ….the key is how we have lived our lives.

Have we loved and been loved? Have we loved the experience of being alive and all that entails? Have we done and said the things we wanted to do and say? Have we been grateful for gifts that we have been given? All of this was mulling around in my head….

Maybe it’s because I oversaw the care of my Mother for eleven years at home and in nursing homes, that I am very clear that I prefer quality over quantity. In other words, I would rather live a shorter life of substance and joy than a longer life inhibited by ill health.

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And so I arrived at the A & E department ready for anything…and at the same time, although in pain, very peaceful and calm inside.

It was found that I had fluid on my lung, plus blood clots…one of which had destroyed my left kidney. {The good news is that my right kidney is still in good shape.}

I had gone to my doctor a few times since the beginning of the year, but hadn’t always taken her advice. I was convinced that whatever was going on would sort itself out! Well this time it didn’t….

summer tree – watercolour

For the following eight days I received superb treatment. So many tests, I lost count, plus constant updates from nurses and doctors and a feeling of being very well taken care of.

I have never enjoyed hospitals, or needles (had a serious needle phobia up until the age of 60) but this experience was different. I found it all very interesting and it’s left me wanting to learn more about the internal workings of my body.. It was as if fear was replaced with intrigue. Plus there was some wonderful ‘people watching’ to be enjoyed – although having said that I didn’t have the energy even to sketch!

Other than my lovely next door neighbour Jeanie who brought in clean pjs etc I didn’t tell anyone else that I was in the hospital. My two children in the States are still recovering from the sudden loss of their father in February and so I didn’t want to alarm them….and given that I was so tired, and occupied with tests, etc. I wasn’t up to people visiting me.

I did let my children know after three days….Since then they have been so very supportive and have told me not to do that again……

Brecon Beacons – Wales – watercolour

Since leaving the hospital, the support I have received has been wonderful….all of which I am very grateful for.

I suppose I am a little like a cat…..when I get sick, I tend to hide and nurse myself…..:) I even asked my dear friend Gail in Kent if I could hide out in their yurt. It hasn’t come to that, yet, but it seems like a good idea to me.

My aftercare has been excellent and is ongoing. Still lots of tests…including heart scans…. It’s all quite fascinating.

Church Path – Crickhowell – watercolour

I was asked by a good friend yesterday what has been the most important part of my life. My answer ‘creativity’.

It is this one element that has made sense of everything else and has enhanced and nurtured the great joys in my life, – my children, friends, animals, etc. It has also been a great buffer against the trials and tribulations that we all experience through life’s journey.

Those who read my blog will know that I am always banging on about ‘The Creative Process being the key to Emotonal, Physical and Spiritual Wellbeing’. It’s true.

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This experience has given me cause for much reflection.

Painting, writing, gardening, and all sorts of other creative endeavours will take precedence.

Much more time spent communing with Mother Nature……

As little time as possible in cities……

And I definitely need to organise my life so that I can have a cat again…..:)

Christeve the Cat – watercolour/gouache

Fortunately I don’t have anything on my calendar until October….and so my plan is to just hang loose. Each day I am able to do more writing and painting….and as I said earlier am feeling better all the time.

I hope everyone else is enjoying their summer and keeping well….and of course being creative.

A Bientot

Janet

65 thoughts on “None of us is ever creative enough to know how things will actually work out…..

  1. Judith

    I’m so glad you’re home now! How scary it all must have been, despite those feelings of calmness. Do take care of yourself and don’t over-do. I agree that creativity is one of the greatest blessings in life. I love your paintings. Enjoy the gift God has given you.

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      Thank you Judith….those of us blessed with the desire to create are indeed fortunate people. I am definitely taking advantage of relaxing times…and now that I am feeling so much better am thoroughly enjoying it. Janet xx

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  2. Sharon Mann

    Dear Janet – I’m happy to hear you are doing much better and creativity is carry you through your healing. Your color today is off the chart wonderful.

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  3. Writing to Freedom

    I’m glad to hear you’re on the mend and your attitude is as upbeat as ever Janet. Kudos for knowing what’s important to you and aligning your life to match. Happy creating, relaxing, and being in nature. Hugs and blessings…

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  4. Yellow Bird

    Dear Janet,
    All best wishes for a speedy recovery. I sense you are already turning the experience and its aftermath into a positive life-affirming time. All grist to the mills of creativity. Very unusually, two ruby-throated hummingbirds were sighted over my pond this morning at first light, before the heat of the day. Just saying……..
    Blessings.

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      What a wonderful sight….TWO ruby-throated hummingbirds…..Enjoy the beautiful magic, and thank you so m much for your kind words. I am definitely feeling stronger by the day….Janet XX

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  5. Joan Maloof

    Such beautiful artwork to accompany this beautiful post! Glad you had good care and are getting well. Yes! to more time in nature…. less time in cities….and another cat someday.

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  6. memadtwo

    Best wishes for your continued recovery. Your paintings and words, as always, shine.

    Having recently experienced the nightmare that is medicine here in the United States while caring for a friend, I can say definitively that any system that lets you worry about less (especially money) would be an improvement.

    So hard to make every moment count, and yet, yes…quality over quantity, every time. Sending healing thoughts, K.

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  7. JILL KOHLMEYER

    Dear Janet ,
    Ohh Janet you + we must all be aware that “Peace is Every Step ” Thay wrote 🌷🍃🥀🌺❤️ And so I will be sending you The Forest Whispers of Calmness And Great Creativity !💖 Which I know You Have
    I /We LOVE ❤️ YOU MUCH DEAR , Please continue to Take Great Care and Feel Better
    Soooo Much Love JILLE & GENAVIES ❤️

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      Hi Darling Jill. Thank you so much for all your kind and loving words. I am feeling stronger by the day and know that from this will come much good. Sending you and Genavies much love. Janet XXX

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  8. Emma Cownie

    You have had a really tough time of it this year. I agree with your children. I’m sure they’d rather know that you were ill than find out 3 days later! Wishing you a speedy recovery. I loved your painting Christeve the Cat – I used to have a cat that looked a bit like that when I was a child. He was called Oscar.

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      Good morning Emma. I think I have learned m my lesson re telling my children. Christieve the Cat used to live with me in Wales…I loved her so much. Maybe Christieve and Oscar are playing together in kitty heaven:). Hope all is going well in Ireland. Janet XX

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  9. Ka Malana - Fiestaestrellas.com

    I loved reading about your life, Janet! Please keep on the road to health improvements! I am grateful to hear about your one functioning kidney! Art is the most important aspect of life. You call it creativity; and I guess, I call it art. Though I never got anywhere with my art. I still surround myself with my own art – and know how much it has “gotten me through,” and… I love viewing your paintings here. Please be very well ❤

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      Thank you Ka for these words. I am very glad to hear that you are surrounded with your paintings….maybe one day you will start again. It never leaves us….. Sending you my best wishes – Janet XX

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  10. winderjssc

    I am so sorry to hear that you have had this health problem and would like to wish you a speedy recovery and continued creativity. Thank you for sharing your wonderful paintings.

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  11. Pane P.

    Most sincerely Janet my hope is for your well being and continued journey with the beautiful art that you express to the world.

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  12. Vera Komnig

    Huuu, what a experience, my dear sweet sister in art.

    I am so happy to read that you are better now. I have and had you in my heart and felt you in the last weeks and month more near than evry time not knowing you are ill. So happy that you now will care intensive for yourself.

    It are such experiences like this one, the hard and heavy and painfuls which are able to carry us back to ourselfs and open new horizons.
    But we are so happy to ground in such deep creativity which rebirth us new again and again.
    Nevertheless, how I can understand your children saying to you, please don’t do it once again. Huah….what a horrible imagine not to know when the mother is ill and yes I understand you too, my dear Janet. You are a mother. And nothing seems more important than to prevent the childs from every sorrow.

    It is very good that the univers gifted you now much time for yourself, for a meeting with our mother nature and a recovery in silence and calmness.

    Please take good care of yourself.
    Sending hugs and love ❤
    Vera

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      Good morning my dear Vera…my sister in art…..I love what you say about how pain and difficulty can open up new horizons…which I do believe this has done for me.
      We can a new and clearer persecutive on life and of course on the creative process.
      I definitely won’t do that again to my children. They have been very clear that they need to know what’s happening no matter what! We have all learned a lot this year.

      I think of you so often and do look forward to a time when we might paint in the same place…now wouldn’t that be fun.

      I am just getting used to being able to relax and take my time with everything, and indeed it is a gift, one I plan to enjoy.

      Sending love and many thanks for your thoughts. Janet XXXX

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  13. Jayanthi

    Continue to stay well, dear Janet – hope it is all being stabilised. Take good care of yourself.
    Love
    Jayanthi

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  14. davidjrogersftw

    Dear Janet,
    All I can say is that I’m so happy that you’re mending and well on your way to regaining health. I was so worried about you and missed you. The art in this post is so lovely and so much like you that it is like an old friend come back to me. I marvel at your high spirits in the midst of your health issues, but I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised. Your’e such an exceptional person.

    Best wishes for continuing recovery and creativity,
    David

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      Thank you so much David…..I am definitely feeling better than I have in a while. The creative juices are flowing in all sorts of unexpected ways:). Do hope that you, Diana and the family are all well and enjoying summer. JanetX

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  15. Namrata D

    With those paintings in-between reading took me to an other level. Blessed are the people who can express their feelings even of pain in such a positive way. World do need people like you to make it more beautiful. Stay healthy🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

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  16. Margaret Fenwick

    Janet, I was stunned to read about your illness but so relieved that you are recovering. Do take care and don’t overdo things. But do continue showing us your wonderful paintings. I am enjoying them so much.
    Lots of love
    Margaret

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      Thank you so much Margaret for your kind words. I am definitely taking things steadily and feeling better by the day….Painting of course will help the process enormously.:}…Janet XXX

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  17. mehrmavlana

    Hi Janet ! Im a new blogger, and have no idea how I stumbled across your blog , but Im so grateful I did. Im sorry you have not been well and I do hope you get better soon. You write and paint so beautifully that it left such a positive impact on my mind 💜

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      Good morning and thank you very much for your lovely words. I hope you enjoy your blogging experience. I have been doing it for quite a few years and it has brought to me so many wonderful people from around the world that I otherwise would not have met. I will look forward to reading your blog. Janet XX

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      1. Patty

        I enjoy these posts very much. Don’t get to read as many as I would like. Not enough hours in the day.

      2. Patty

        I wish I had enough time to read all the blogs that I love. If I did that though, I will get nothing else on this earth done.

  18. snowbird

    I am delighted to hear you are on the mend! Phew!!! Take it easy though, I do like your list of new priorities and am looking forward to you getting a cat!xxxx

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      And so am I looking forward to getting a cat and maybe a puppy …but let’s get the cat first:). Yes, am feeling much better…still tests to come. A big heart test on 4th September…but all in all very positive indeed. XXXXX

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  19. Katherine

    I am relieved to read you are much better.I think until we have soething serious we always think it is ” other people” who have heart attacks etc and it is a shock when we get aserious problem.I am glad you have been able or been forced to let go and give in to your body.I l am very moved by your images and the kindness of your loving heart.Still summer so maybe you will be able to go for short walks etc
    Feeling for you wiith all my heart,Katherine

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      Thank you Katherine for your kind words. Yes, it’s been a wake up call…one that I bringing all sorts of benefits with it. As my daughter said…”Mum it’s giving you permission to relax” and she is right….and I am enjoying it:). I have been taking short walks every day and in a very gentle fashion continuing withy stretching exercises which I have done for 44 years. I am feeling so much better, in fact better than I have in a long time. I do have several tests coming up including a big heart scan….but all in all I am so happy with the treatment I have received through our wonderful NHS and as I say am feeling better by the day. Painting and writing are definitely part of the healing process. I hope that you are enjoying a lovely summer and all is well. Janet XXX

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  20. Playamart - Zeebra Designs

    Your story reminds us all that we only have this moment, and things can change rapidly with no warning. The images provide a calming balance, and confirms that you are calm during any storm, and you pass that calmness along to us.

    So glad that you are back on the road to wellness. As always, your images are soothing and amazing. You are a gift to us all!

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    1. janetweightreed10 Post author

      Thank you very much for this lovely comment. I am glad to report that I am feeling better than I have in a long time:). Onwards for another beautiful day…and I hope yours is lovely. Janet X

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  21. Jet Eliot

    Dear Janet, I am so very sorry to hear you’ve been through this health challenge, what a difficult and trying time for you. It sounds like you have an enormous reservoir of peace inside you that has carried you very well, and the beauty of your life’s experiences, and incredible art, have also been healing and rewarding. Thanks for taking the time to give us your news. And thank you for this incredible art here today. Wow, one outstanding painting after another. The blue hummingbird and the summer tree and the Brecon Beacons especially gave me pause. Sending lots of love and warmth, my friend.

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